Feelings Deeply Rooted

As I listen to Billie Eilish tonight, her music connects with me. I think “that is foolish”, her, with her songs of youth, of love, of life but yet it just that, that it connects with me. I, perhaps longing for that time of my youth I felt such feelings, feelings that we feel in our youth, feelings so new, feelings so strong that at times we felt overwhelmed with them.

When did I lose those feelings of youth? When did I push them out for something more logical, more mature? Then I remember how those feelings sometimes hurt, pain of the heart and remember why I let them go. Then I listen to Billie Eilish and hear in her songs feelings I had put aside, put in the past and I feel those feelings again …. And I like it … for I feel those feel. Sometimes we let go, sometimes we rediscover what we let go. We let go at the time for a reason that served us but as we rediscover those feelings we ask perhaps they serve us now.

February 21, 2020